Some years, you're the bug...
Well, dear readers, the year is coming quickly to a close. I, for one, welcome the New Year with open arms. As you've probably noted, being the faithful readers that you are, this year has not been one of my best. Our family has this tradition that on Christmas Eve, the family member who has had the most embarassing thing happen, or made the most awful mistake, or in some way just had a bad moment in the year -- well, that person gets an award to keep in their house until NEXT Christmas Eve when it (hopefully) gets passed to the next big screw-up. This year, you guessed it, I was the unanimous vote for the award. It made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside...Oh well. I suppose I did richly deserve it, and now I have next year to try again in. I'm not sure why I feel so depressed about this year, but it is hopefully soon behind me! Next year is going to be the greatest. I don't know how or why, but it is. I'm seriously considering a change of schools... I figure crying at school because you hate your coworkers so much is a sign to move on. And although I still love the kids in my class...I get really frustrated working with people who seem to have forgotten why they got in to teaching in the first place. No wonder people hate teachers! These people are only out for themselves, and their interests. They're not doing anything for the kids... Since I've been at this school, I started a choir for 4th and 5th graders (even though I am NOT the music teacher). I'm on the Bully Prevention Committee (worst committee EV-ER). I'm co-coordinator of the Mediation program, and student support groups. AND I'm organizing a talent show. ... All of this without extra pay - which I only mention to make the point that I'm not in it for me.. (Do I sound like a martyr or what??) But my point is this: I love doing these things, I really do. But do you think any member of our staff is appreciative? NO. They are only as supportive as their schedules allow. As soon as you need some extra help, or need to borrow the kids out of class for 10 minutes, or want to have an assembly to show the school how hard you have worked -- then everyone complains and whines and pouts... It's ridiculous. I hate them all. (sigh)
This past weekend was fun. School was over on Thursday, and a bunch of us went to Robin's for a little "party". Then several of us went from the party downtown to Ricky's. I really had a fun time! It was my first time partying with Lisa, and she kept me laughing pretty much the whole night. I'm not sure Mary felt it was her most fun night ever, but she seemed to be Ok. And Mr. B. was at Robin's, and then at Ricky's but he doesn't usually talk to us in public, so that really wasn't much of a suprise. Lauren would just tell me to remember my 'boundaries', and move on. So I have. Another good reason to switch schools! On Friday night, I went out on the town with Joel, and we had a lovely time -- really good laughs, and drinks! I want to take this time to thank Joel for answering the call when I needed to get out of the house for a little while - family holiday stress is the worst kind of stress... And then on Saturday night (after presents had been opened, and we were all sleeping soundly...) JOE CALLED!! Woo-hoo! It was a lovely suprise to hear from Joe (who is currently stationed in Iraq) and even though it was 2 AM...and mother felt she should let me sleep instead of wake me to take the call.. she DID wake me, and I loved talking to him. It totally made my holiday worthwhile. I will now pause to say to Joe (and indeed all the men and women in Iraq and elsewhere..) I hope you will soon be able to come home - safe and sound. Remember that we miss you and love you, and it's never too late to call! (I will not go into a political rant on the subject of war... but I love to share my views, so feel free to email or call me and we can get into it!)
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Explain this to me, please: Your best friend suddenly stops calling you because you have a slight misunderstanding (and he's a guy - so it's better not to talk than to try and work it out...haha..) So he stops calling you. And you don't call him, because he's the one who was very very mean, and said some very nasty things... you were the one crying at the end of the last conversation. So nine months go by -- almost a year! and then out of nowhere, he calls you. And he kind of pretends like nine months haven't just gone by without a word. Turns out he's going to be around, and wants to get together and see you. So you say, ok... after all, in those nine months you've gone on with your life, but you really miss him still. Great! He says he'll call you on Monday when he gets back to town, unless it's too late - then he'll call on Tuesday.... And now it's Monday ... AGAIN.. In other words, he hasn't called for a week. Sooooo... According to "He's Just Not That Into You" (loaned to me by Mary, thank you very much..) my former best friend is just not that into me... (And I mean that in a without dating - kind of way). Apparently, he feels my feelings are just not that important, or that I'll just be here when he does call (which would have been very true THIS year).. So first resolution for 2006: Start to raise those expectations once again. Due to a lack of self-esteem this year, I've found myself making excuses for the people in my life who disappoint and annoy me. "well, he's busy" "that's just his way" "she didn't mean that THAT way" "at least we get to hang out at work"... Well, no more! This new year is going to be the one where I stop being so down on myself, and reinstate my old theme -- "Anything less than the best is a felony"!! That's right, kids! I will expect and accept nothing but the best... So if you ARE my friend, be ready to elevate your game...
I wish you all the best of New Year's Eves... I hope you all party hard, but safely! And I cannot wait to see what the new year brings for all of us!
This past weekend was fun. School was over on Thursday, and a bunch of us went to Robin's for a little "party". Then several of us went from the party downtown to Ricky's. I really had a fun time! It was my first time partying with Lisa, and she kept me laughing pretty much the whole night. I'm not sure Mary felt it was her most fun night ever, but she seemed to be Ok. And Mr. B. was at Robin's, and then at Ricky's but he doesn't usually talk to us in public, so that really wasn't much of a suprise. Lauren would just tell me to remember my 'boundaries', and move on. So I have. Another good reason to switch schools! On Friday night, I went out on the town with Joel, and we had a lovely time -- really good laughs, and drinks! I want to take this time to thank Joel for answering the call when I needed to get out of the house for a little while - family holiday stress is the worst kind of stress... And then on Saturday night (after presents had been opened, and we were all sleeping soundly...) JOE CALLED!! Woo-hoo! It was a lovely suprise to hear from Joe (who is currently stationed in Iraq) and even though it was 2 AM...and mother felt she should let me sleep instead of wake me to take the call.. she DID wake me, and I loved talking to him. It totally made my holiday worthwhile. I will now pause to say to Joe (and indeed all the men and women in Iraq and elsewhere..) I hope you will soon be able to come home - safe and sound. Remember that we miss you and love you, and it's never too late to call! (I will not go into a political rant on the subject of war... but I love to share my views, so feel free to email or call me and we can get into it!)
New Topic:
Explain this to me, please: Your best friend suddenly stops calling you because you have a slight misunderstanding (and he's a guy - so it's better not to talk than to try and work it out...haha..) So he stops calling you. And you don't call him, because he's the one who was very very mean, and said some very nasty things... you were the one crying at the end of the last conversation. So nine months go by -- almost a year! and then out of nowhere, he calls you. And he kind of pretends like nine months haven't just gone by without a word. Turns out he's going to be around, and wants to get together and see you. So you say, ok... after all, in those nine months you've gone on with your life, but you really miss him still. Great! He says he'll call you on Monday when he gets back to town, unless it's too late - then he'll call on Tuesday.... And now it's Monday ... AGAIN.. In other words, he hasn't called for a week. Sooooo... According to "He's Just Not That Into You" (loaned to me by Mary, thank you very much..) my former best friend is just not that into me... (And I mean that in a without dating - kind of way). Apparently, he feels my feelings are just not that important, or that I'll just be here when he does call (which would have been very true THIS year).. So first resolution for 2006: Start to raise those expectations once again. Due to a lack of self-esteem this year, I've found myself making excuses for the people in my life who disappoint and annoy me. "well, he's busy" "that's just his way" "she didn't mean that THAT way" "at least we get to hang out at work"... Well, no more! This new year is going to be the one where I stop being so down on myself, and reinstate my old theme -- "Anything less than the best is a felony"!! That's right, kids! I will expect and accept nothing but the best... So if you ARE my friend, be ready to elevate your game...
I wish you all the best of New Year's Eves... I hope you all party hard, but safely! And I cannot wait to see what the new year brings for all of us!
posted by Martha @ 12:10 PM
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